Two weeks ago I started to publish the paintings I did from 1981 to 1990, on Flickr and in my Facebook account, one picture per day. I take them in a random sequence and give short comments.

Though the beginning of this phase of painting was quite sudden – I experienced a tremendous inpour of energies 6 September 1981, when I first came into contact with the Great Invocation given by Master DK, using it in meditation – I had painted  already since my school-days in the early 70ies, first influenced by drugs and psychedelic art as well as surrealism. I dissolved all these pictures in the early 90ies – feeling that they were too imperfect and chaotic. I realised only some days ago that in these early images there were colour elements and motives which still appear in a transformed form in my recent paintings.

The pictures are all expressions of a long inner spiritual search for light and an oscillation between eastern and western expressions of wisdom. They reflect inner experiences and phases of growth. Being entirely autodidactic, I felt that my technique was always far from being perfect, just an outflow of creative expression and a search for manifesting light / fire on paper.

Many of the pictures of this cycle came out with a great inner intensity and a desire to “paint in fire”. Often they were done quite fast and in a kind of rapture.

During the 80ies and 90ies I hardly met an understanding from the persons to whom I showed the pictures and I wondered what they were good for – just filling the basement. In the spiritual group in which I was during the 90ies they were considered with distrust, as an expression of personality. So my wife and I dissolved nearly all of the paintings in 1997, only photos of the originals remained. I kept the photo documentation in a diary. But also this book carried for me some kind of a stigma. I wanted to throw it away and told Sri Kumar about it January 2003 in India. He said, don’t destroy it, give it to a friend for safekeeping. And this I did.

It was only in January 2009 again in India that, for the first time, a young lady showed a deeper interest in the pictures, and  I told her that I’ll give her the diary as a present. I asked the friend who had it to send it back to me – after 6 years of safekeeping. But before I could give the book to the young lady a strange violent confusion made it impossible. So I started scanning the photos and presented a selection of them at the 100th May Call celebration in Engelberg, Switzerland.

November 2009, the young lady gave me some deep hints as per the paintings. This first appreciation opened my inner doors to a creative expression which continues since then – a restart after 19 years of pause. The contact, however ended a short while afterwards, again with some strange violent confusion, so that the diary with the pictures is still with me, but no longer belonging to me.

The pictures of the “Early Paintings” are from scans of the photos. I tried to work on them a bit, but some weren’t very sharp. I’ll continue to publish them over the next time, not more than one per day. It is an “appreciation” 30 years later.

Choir of Angels, 10 Nov. 1981 – 30 years ago. A4, liquid glazing paint

P.S.: I only realised this morning (27th Nov.), after having slept on it, that there is a pattern behind the paintings: Like Brahma, the Indian god of creation, destroyed various of his creations because they weren’t perfect, I destroyed the very early paintings because they were too dark, filled with expressions of anguish and inner strives – though inner seeds remained, silently continuing to sprout.

Also the next series, which now are being published, was destroyed, but there remained outer seeds in the form of photos, from which these pictures now got restored. The first (I think 18) pictures of the present series, Images of Synthesis, I gave away to the young friend immediately after having painted them, just keeping the digital version. Since the contact with her broke down, I then kept on putting away the paper versions into a folder directly after painting and worked on the digital version. So the digital image became for me the “quinta essentia”, the end-product of an alchemical process of refinement, where the matter undergoes a process of fiery destruction to  later get distilled and potentised to the final perfection.

I also realised that after the close of the cycle of “Early Paintings” there were some intermediary and very ephemeral images drawn on a blackboard and wiped out a short time later. Below you find one of these drawings, which mostly I didn’t even document with a photo. You find a detailed description of the symbolism on Flickr. See also on Flickriver.

Globe Chains – Incarnations of the Earth. Blackboard painting, 1991

A friend sent me today the link to this video with a wonderfully presented message, conveying the state of affairs of the world we live in.

“This is a non-commercial attempt to highlight the fact that world leaders, irresponsible corporates and mindless ‘consumers’ are combining to destroy life on earth. It is dedicated to all who died fighting for the planet and those whose lives are on the line today. The cut was put together by Vivek Chauhan, a young film maker, together with naturalists working with the Sanctuary Asia network. The principal source for the footage was Yann Arthus-Bertrand’s incredible film HOME. The music is by Armand Amar. And extracts from Greenpeace and Timescapes“.

A friend from Posadas, Argentina, sent me an MP3-file of the very beautiful “Blessings of a Mother” by Snatam Kaur, sung in Spanish. I found it also on YouTube, here it is:

He also added the Spanish text – though I only understand it vaguely, it is beautiful. If you also don’t understand Spanish, you can copy it into Google translator, if you want to get more of the meaning.

Bendición de mi madre –  Mother´s Blessing

A beautiful timelapse video of petals opening like ballet dancers – graceful movements visualising the work of the devic world.

A sublime musical prayer to Devi, the Divine Mother, from the album “Sacred Names of Mother Divine” by Craig Pruess and Ananda, Heaven on Earth Music.

On July 24, 2010, thousands of people around the world recorded videos of their lives on YouTube to take part in “Life in a Day”, a cinematic experiment to document a single day on earth. From all the material – more than 4,500 hours of footage – Oscar-winning director Kevin Macdonald and executive producer Ridley Scott created a 90-minute feature film that offers an entertaining, surprising and moving view of life on earth.

After having been presented on different festivals “Life in a Day” is now available for free with subtitles in 25 languages (here is the one with German subtitles). More information on the Lifeinaday-Channel.

Sunday evening we entered into the month of Scorpio, a most profound sign. When thinking of how to visualise its energies I reflected on its qualities, and then saw photos of the burning oil platform “Deepwater Horizon” which has sank last year in the Gulf of Mexico – an emblematic signal of Scorpionic qualities. In Spiritual Astrology Master EK says: “Secrecy is the key-note of the sign. Oil mines and hidden treasures are linked up with Scorpio. Wherever there is no possibility for the sunshine to enter and wherever there is constant darkness, there is the influence of Scorpio.”

And then he continued mentioning toxic substances being ruled by Scorpio and said: “Disappearance is the activity of this sign and the house. The disappearance of the light of the soul, through a gradual fall into matter-state is the process that occurs here. Suspension of consciousness, due to the predominance of the material plane on the higher planes is the activity. Death, loss of consciousness, fainting and coma are caused by the influence of this sign.”

The form of the divine Mother related to Scorpio is Kali, and so I searched for representations of Kali which would fit with the picture of the sinking oil platform. There was one drawing which fitted perfectly. So I started working on the picture. I first arranged the details in Photoshop, then printed it on paper and continued with working on details and colours. Afterwards I scanned the picture and worked on further details of the composition. The last step is printing the image on paper and readjusting the colours to increase the intensity to its maximum. It takes several prints until I’m satisfied with the outcome. When I was painting in the 80ies I was always trying to get most intense luminous colours, but it wasn’t possible due to the materials I had. Now, with the digital processing the pictures get a strong radiance.

The painting “Scorpio – The Dark Mother and the Consequences of Blindness” shows extreme contrasts – The fire-fighting vessels in front of the burning oil platform, then, in the fire, the Goddess Kali appearing in the dark circle, holding a caduceus topped by a skull. The destructions only touch the outer form, the inner truth remains. Man, however, trying to get the grip on the consequences of his greed, looses the game he started. Scorpio teaches through deep transformations transiting through death to a higher plane of understanding. May man learn through the self-generated catastrophes to respect nature and to cooperate with it instead of exploiting. You can see the picture also in the gallery “Images of Synthesis” and download a high-resolution version.

Scorpio – The Dark Mother and the Consequences of Blindness

A sublime video about pollination – bats, bees, birds, butterflies pollinating flowers. The flowers attracting the bees etc. is symbol of the seeker being attracted by knowledge, collecting the substance for the honey of wisdom.

A musical celebration of the concept of Time, by scienceandnonduality., produced by Symphony of Science.

They have also produced other videos like Symphony of Science – “Children of Africa” (The Story of Us): “A musical celebration of humanity, its origins, and achievements, contrasted with a somber look at our environmentally destructive tendencies and deep similarities with other primates.”

or “The Poetry of Reality (An Anthem for Science)” (The Poetry of Reality is the fifth installment in the Symphony of Science music video series. It features 12 scientists and science enthusiasts.)

or “Our Place in the Cosmos” – great pictures….

Very nice impressions of the royal wedding in Bhutan on 13.10.2011. Dignitaries and well-wishers gathered at an ancient monastic fortress to see King Jigme Khesar Namgyel Wangchuk marry his bride, 21-year-old student Jetsun Pema. For days before the wedding, monks held dawn prayer sessions in remote mountain valleys.